<b>Chapter </b><b>47 </b>
“I know she’s already asleep but with everything she’s been through this morning I think a little bit of Valium would help <b>her </b><b>both </b>mentally and physically.”
She holds her hand out with a small syringe in her palm.
“It’s up to you.”
“I don’t want to drug her down too much right now and I don’t like the idea of giving her a shot while she’s sleeping. What did you <b>find</b><b>?: </b>
“She does have a decent tear, so I’m d I went the route I did as it was far less painful and quicker. It’s about two inches long but <b>it was </b>responding nicely to the after tie medication before I cleaned everything up. I’lle up to your room around nine tonight with the second dose and walk you through giving it to her. If you have Valium in pill form I would rmend her to take that around 8:30 as the second dose still tends to be a bit painful.”
“Thank you, Ang.”
She gives me a smile as I pull her into a hug.
“I’m going to head over to the medical wing. <b>I’ve </b><b>got </b>a physical toplete at 11:30 before <b>I </b><b>can </b>check on Cole.<b>” </b>
“I’ll be headed over to Cole once I leave here. Then I’m going to have lunch with all of the trainers<b>.</b><b>” </b>
She gives me a final nod before leaving the room.
I make my way back to Lilly,ying on the bed with her. I pull her closer to me. She whimpers at first until I touch her face <b>and </b>speak to her.
“Lilly, I wish I could stay with you. All I want is to hold you tight and never let go.”
She opens her eyes and looks into mine. Her normally stunning blue eyes are dull, filled with sadness and worry<b>. </b>
“The only thing today changes is how I help you deal with your past. I certainly won’t ever wear a condom with you again.”
I stifle a smallugh but at least earn a smile from her.
“Was that what you changed? Is that why you suddenly felt like him?”
“Yes Lilly. All I did was put on a condom and pull you back so your thighs were leaning against mine. I felt you change as soon as <b>I </b>pulled you back. That’s why I stopped. I knew it triggered the memories. I’m sorry Lilly. <b>I </b>should have never done that to you.”
“Don’t be. I needed to finally know.”
“Why did you wait so long to tell me?”
“I was convinced of a lot of things when he was training me. A lot of them I still struggle not to believe. He would always tell me that the luna of a pack had to be pure but that no alpha wants a luna that doesn’t know how to please him. That telling anyone what he did to me would make me a whore in your eyes and worthy of rejection.”
I take a deep breath trying to process everything.
“How did seeing Cole’s injuries to his chest trigger your memories? What made you change your mind <b>about </b><b>talking </b><b>aout </b><b>it</b><b>?</b><b>” </b>
“There was a period of time when he spanked me while I was still tied to the bed. It created cuts and bruises <b>all </b>over <b>my </b><b>chest </b><b>and </b><b>belly</b><b>. </b><b>Much </b>like what I saw on him today. The tenderness <b>I </b>saw with how youforted him and reassured him<b>, </b><b>a </b><bplete </b><b>stranger </b><b>that </b><b>you </b><b>just </b><b>met </b>reminded me of how you treated me early in our rtionship. How you fought with your father over <bpleting </b><b>the </b><b>mate’s </b><b>union </b><b>ceremony </b>
because you knew I wasn’t ready for sex. How patiently you waited for me to be ready and how you have let <b>go </b>of your own sexual <b>desires </b><b>to </b>keep mefortable. I should have told you sooner. Maybe I could have learned to like <b>sex </b>after all that’s <b>happened </b>to me
<b>She </b>yelps <b>as </b>I suddenly straddle her<b>, </b>sliding my hands under her and lowering my body down against her.
“You enjoy it more than you allow yourself to know and I have every intention of slowly<b>, </b>gently teaching you how. You deserve to <b>feel </b><b>it </b><b>as </b><b>it </b>should be without the fear and anxiety you’vee to know. I love you and I won’t give up on making you happy.”
I capture her lips gently in mine. I can tell how tired she is by how hard it is for her to keep catch our breath. I gently rub the back of her head when she tries to resume the <b>kiss </b>again.
“It’s okay to sleep, Lilly. I’ll be backter. Are you in any pain?” <ol><li>up. </li></ol>
I lean my head upon her forehead as we both
She shakes her head as her eyes start to droop again. I slide off her <b>so </b>that I’m <b>face </b>to face with her again, gently stroking her <b>temple </b><b>as </b><b>she </b>falls asleep.
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