“I’d like to ask you a few questions about your sexual activity and do a brief exam checking for any wounds that are rted to sexual disesses


    “You’re not going to find anything of that nature on me.”


    “I understand that you’re very sore in that area which is why I’m going to do the exam in the water.” I exin as I put gloves on.


    “I know you mentioned that other packs haven’t done this type of exam on you before.”


    I pause as he slowly nods his head.


    “Yes sir, I’ve never had to submit to the testing or exam.”


    “It doesn’t surprise me that you haven’t. Three years ago the council removed it as a required part of the physical in order to allow smaller packs that couldn’t afford all the testing the ability to participate in the prospect program. Therger packs are supposed to still be running everything listed on the physical but a lot have stopped.”


    “But you do everything by the book.” He speaks tiredly.


    “I realize it’s quite awkward to have a male, especially the alpha, do the exam but I think, doing it this


    I can tell by his breathing that he’s struggling with his anxiety already.


    “Alpha please, can it wait?”


    way is going to be the easiest for you.”


    “Everyone thates through the prospect program goes through this exam, Cole, As well as the questionnaire. There’s nothing to be ashamed of. I assure you, my touch is gentle. I’m not going to hurt you.”


    “Do you realize how many times I’ve heard that?”


    “I can’t imagine that so I’m not going to try. Just rx with my touch. I will put you how I need you.”


    Despite his obvious distress with the exam I push forward. I have found over the years that maintaining my word, no matter their reaction to what’s going on, has helped far more wolves than it has ever hurt in the long run.


    I know it sounds cruel but pushing the abused ones also allows me to physically see where their limit is and how they react when they are pushed beyond it.


    I reach into the water sliding my hand under his knee. He tenses badly but remains silent. With some gentle persuasion I lift one leg into an open butterfly. I reach down again, moving quickly to do a blind exam looking for any round sores mixed in with the linear ones he already has.


    Unfortunately I’m not quick enough for the young man to tolerate. He yelps and attempts to pull away but the tub and the ramp are in his way.


    “Alpha please, I can’t do this!”


    He whines loudly after I’ve already finished.


    “Please, alpha. There’s nothing there. I’ve never had sex.”


    He’s still fighting hard even though I’vepleted what I needed. The way he spoke sounds more like a forced confession to a painful secret, not a reaction I wanted to get.


    “Calm down Cole. I’m already finished.”


    I try to soothe as the young man looks at me intently. He’s breathing hard as he looks away.


    “I’m sorry alpha. I’m so weak and stupid.”


    He chastises himself. His hands are balied into tight fists as he continues into a mantra of apologizing for being weak before those same fists connect with


    the sides of his head.


    I’m inplete shock for several seconds as he rains the blows down on himself. Snapping out of it at quickly as I could I gratiile Bardi, me dreade bloody from reopening the wound on his head.


    “Colton, enough.”


    My voice is loud without yelling, but very much alpha and demanding his attention. I’m shorked as being Cole not Colton. Fear is in his eyes as he looks at me briefly.


    he freezes and doesn’t speak a word to hit a


    “I will not tolerate self injurious behavior while you are here.”


    He’s shaking hard as he stares fearfully into my eyes.