<b>Chapter </b><b>181 </b>
He pulls Madilyn closer to him as he talks.
“I didn’t mean to do it. I don’t want to do it but everything happened so fast that it spiraled out of control. For three years now my father has punished me every single month, even more than that when he finds a mark.”
He freezes as soon as he realizes what he’s done.
“Silence.‘
<b>I </b>warn Lilly through the link as I stand from the loveseat.
“Fuuuuck.”
He groans as he rolls away from Madilyn. I can see him balling his hand into a fist and before I can stop him he pummels himself twice in the head. I stop him before he strikes a third but he’s fighting it badly.
“Alpha please. I deserve this. You’re refusing to punish me when I deserve to be punished. Why haven’t you beaten me yet? Please just tie me down <b>and </by into me. Stop withholding on me. You know I deserve it. Stop treating me differently and give me what I deserve. Alpha…..”
“Enough.”
My voice is stern and my aura is out but neither is angry in nature. Unfortunately he doesn’t understand that. <b>All </b>he understands is the power behind it. He’s breathing hard and shaking from the tension in his body, in his desperate attempt to protect himself from the blows he believes he deserves.
“Take my hand.”
He doesn’t move,
he stays stiff as a board panting hard with a slight wheeze behind each breath. I soften my voice without losing mymanding tone.
“Cole, you are to open your hand and take mine. I want you to squeeze as hard <b>as </b><b>you </b>can.”
“Alpha please, why can’t you just beat me. Holding back is worse than doing <b>it</b>. I can’t handle the waiting.”
“That’s not what you deserve.”
“You heard me alpha. I’m marking those girls. As young as seven. I mark them and care for them like my mate for three days. It hurts them. It’s indescribable how I hurt them. That’s why I don’t fight meeting with my father. I deserve the beatings I receive.*
“At this point you will answer my questions.”
I put the emphasis on will.
“The injuries that you have right now. Are they from a single beating or multiple?”
“Just one Saturday night.”
“Did he tell you why he was beating you?”
“Normally no but he had my brother help this time./Luna Sasha imed I assaulted her while Andre was out of town. He it to dad but when he <b>saw </b>what dad had nned for me he tried to get dad to back down the severity of my punishment. That’s when dad mentioned the father of <b>twin </b>girlsing to him iming I marked them. He used me of raping the girls. He told Andre that he wanted me impotent.”
“Did you mark them?”
“No. I only had one girl this month. Her mother brings her to me and keeps it secret. I’ve got five such mothers now. I’ve <b>never </b><b>been </b><b>beaten </b><b>for </b>marking their girls.”
His movements and breathing have be frantic and I know he’s going to <b>wake </b>Madilyn if I don’t get things under control <b>again</b><b>. </b>
“Alpha please, you know I deserve it.”
“Enough.” I’ve brought back my sternness. “Bite back your yelp. You will not wake Madilyn.”
I’m stern enough that even Lilly looks as if she’s seen a ghost.
I manipte Cole’s outstretched arm down to his side before leaning my body over his. I can feel the tension radiating from him as I ce my <b>other </b>hand on the back of his head. His reaction surprises me as he bucks against me.
“Let go Cole. I’m not going to hurt you.”
He’s fighting me badly as he tries to get my hand off his head.
“It’s wrong to mark them. I deserve the pain.”
“No you don’t.”
“Alpha…..”
I lean my forehead against his head and speak directly into his ear.
“Let the emotions go. The anger you have that these little girls have <b>to </be <b>to </b>you. The frustration of being the only one they trust to <b>help </b>them. <b>The </b>sorrow of beingbeled a monster and the fear you feel right now. <b>As </b>much as you are begging for punishment you are still terrified that I’m actually going to punish you. Breath Cole. Let it go.”
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