(Cole’s POT)
My will starts whining loudly as soon as the mule pulls into a spot at the north end of the pack musé How I’m even recognizing the park house is a mystery as I’m really struggling with maintaining my mind in the present. 1scesing after me again has put me back, damn near to where I was when I got here.
The more Ie back to reality the more it physically and mentally hurts, discouraging me from keeping the connection. Is it odd to say I can choose not to be here? But then again it’s not any better to be in my own head, filled with the terrible memories of my childhood and my not so distant past.
I’m present enough to follow alpha’s orders and follow his beta through the doors. The smell of antiseptic bits me hard as we enter the first room wee to, bringing me back to reality enough to know I’m where I don’t want to be.
1 turn hard and attempt to leave out the same doors I came through but alpha easily blocks my way and I’m not present enough to work my way around him.
“Bring him over here alpha. I want him toy his head in myp. It should help with the anxiety.”
I recognize the voice but I’m struggling to ce it. My wolf on the other hand knows exactly who it is. He immediately starts bouncing around in my head, prattling on about getting a chance to be near our mate again.
We haven’t seen her since I was transferred back to the medical wing. I was awake enough the day alpha came and got me that I remember most of what happened but the side effects of all the medication I was on made the two weeks after that onerge blur. My wolf ims that Jessa checked on me often, using the mate’s bond to calm my nightmares but I simply don’t remember.
“Lay down with Jessa. She’s going to help calm you. Do you feel like you need some Ativan? We will need you to strip down to your birthday suit to do a thorough exam. We don’t want to miss any injuries.” Alpha exins gently.
For once I’m actually able to hear the directions being given to me even if I’m notpletely able to perform the task.
“Cole, I need you to take your shirt off. No one else will being in today.” Dr. Pierce adds to alpha’s instructions, increasing my struggle even more.
I’m shaking my head hard as I try to start pacing.
“Cole?” Alpha’s touch is light as he tries to gain my attention.
“Talk to me. What’s going on?”
“It’s not proper to be without a shirt around thedies.” I admit my difort with disrobing towards the
floor.
“Ang has seen youpletely naked Cole and Jessa isn’t just a doctor, she’s your mate as well. It’s okay to take your shirt off. I will help you into a gown if that will make you feel better.”
“Please.” I barely whisper.
“I need to walk away to get that for you. Don’t run, Cole. It’s important for us to figure out how you’re hurt so we can help you. I’m sorry this has happened again.”
I look up into alpha’s eyes, searching for the malice that contradicts his apology. Yet all I see is sorrow. I feel his touch gentle on the side of my face.
“Take your shirt off and you might as well take off your pants. I’ll bring a nket over for you.”
All I’m able to do is nod, looking at the floor again.
“What the hell, dad?” Lucas suddenly yells.
“Lucas, you’re not exactly on the best terms with me so I suggest you watch your tone.”
“I haven’t done anything wrong. We were practicing when he cked out and went crazy on me.”
“That’s not what I heard.”
Alpha’s voice is surprisingly calm as he returns to me, barely sitting on the edge of the bed, I only managed to get my shirt off. He tosses the nnel sheet on the bed.
“Okay, Cole. Let me take a quick look at you since Ang is still working on Lucas. Now, it’s very important that you follow my directions. You need to let me know what hurts you. I’m going to keep my touch gentle as it seems you’re struggling to actually talk to me again. How sensitive you are to my touch is going to determine what I have done medically. Do you understand?”
Chapter Comments
1
POST COMMENT NOW
<SHARE