Alpha tries to calm me but everything about me is on high alert and I can’t help but yelp, scream and fight as I feel his hand on the back of my head.


    It takes only seconds for alpha toy his body over the upper half of mine causing me to freeze my fight.


    “Easy there son, everything is okay. Breathe, Cole. I know you’re afraid. I know what you’re anticipating. I knew this would happen and I’m not upset. I need you to feel me Cole. Everything is okay.”


    I’m struggling hard to concentrate on the alpha, to do as he instructs as I’m truly afraid that he’s found some new way to punish me, torture me that my father hasn’t thought of. I want to do nothing more than to retreat back into my head until he finishes whatever punishment he has in store for me but for some reason the touch of my mate keeps me lucid.


    I settle into hard persistent whimpers as I change tactics. Listening to the alpha I concentrate on my senses and find that everything is indeed, okay. His touch on my head is gentle and rhythmic, the same rhythm is also being rubbed gently on the top of my hand. Both are quite soothing, breaking through my guard and allowing me to rx in the hold of both my mate and the alpha.


    “That’s it, much better.”


    I hear alpha encourage but it doesn’t feel better to be here as I’m quickly getting overwhelmed by the pain I’m in.


    “He’s fighting the mate’s bond.”


    Jessa states sadly. I can’t help but feel disappointed in myself. I want to be a good wolf, a good mate but nothing I do has ever been good in the eyes of my family or my pack.


    “I’m sorry Jessa. The fact that he’s said he’s been looking and that he doesn’t have any interest in rejecting it tells me that he wants it but considering the way he lives I’m certain that he feels he doesn’t deserve it.”


    “He told me that he doesn’t deserve it but I’m still having a hard time understanding it. Why would he feel undeserving of love?”


    “Although it’s important for your rtionship for him to open up and tell you the things that have happened to him, I also feel that it’s important for you to understand that his father is his main abuser. He hasn’t detailed how long it’s been going on but I do believe his brothers are in it too.”


    “Is that why you asked if I had ever known love?”


    I nod my head slowly against the pillow in herp.


    “Now that you seem a lot more lucid than when you first got in here, can you tell me what hurts?”


    I open my mouth but no soundes out before I close it again. I feel alpha’s body, slowly lifting off from on top of me until only his hand is left holding mine.


    “It’s okay to take your time. It can take some time for everything to function normally when you’ve gone


    into a mild shock like this.”


    “Shock?” Alpha asks her.


    “From what I can feel, yes. I believe it’s a rarity and only werewolves seem to have it but there is a protective shock that some wolves can go into. It essentially shuts down the nervous system just enough that the individual does not feel pain. They are conscious but they function purely on instinct as long as the threat is urring. Once the threat is removed they respond tomands but have great difficulty with meaningful interactions outside of thosemands. The fact that we have had meaningful responses this soon after the event that triggered it, even though they are inconsistent, is really good.”


    I’m surprised that she was able to give an actual medical exnation to my ckouts. It makes me feel a little better that I’m not going psychotic. I tense and whimper slightly as her hand reces alpha’s on the back of my head.


    She slowly digs her fingers through my hair until her fingertips rest upon my scalp. The tingles from the mate’s bond are stronger now that my wolf isn’t held back by the silver. He purrs loudly but I’m struggling again. The pleasing tingles everyone talks about are overwhelming my extremely sensitive post ckout state causing me to draw a sharp breath in, holding it as I try to cope with this new and overwhelming sensation. My body tenses badly causing me to tremble in herp. My squeeze on alpha’s hand pulls him into my increasing distress.


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    The very name and thing Lucas uses Cole is what he is actually doing. Why hasnt anyone thrown that fact in his face. He’s 16 and grooming girls as young as 10 into thi…


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    And Anjte is still with us. She must be a writer’s nightmare, she keeps reading andining. She hasn’t given positive feedback yet. The Alpha has called Lucas out…


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