<b>Chapter </b>470
Friday July 20th; 8am
(Cole’s POV)
It’s been a month since my meeting with alpha discussing my options for getting out of the hell I call home. I was allowed to take the hard splint off for good two weeks ago but that hasn’t kept me out of the med wing.
I’ve been in a steady slide into severe depression and I’ve had to seek thefort of both alpha and Dr. Pierce when my feelings have be too extreme for me to handle alone.
My mood swings have been so wild that I’ve gotten extremely nasty with Jessa. I so much as begged alpha to send her on a trip with Alpha Damian until today because I knew how badly I was hurting her. I didn’t mean to hurt her and I know I’m going to pay dearly for myck of control when I return.
Sleep is scarce at best and eating is nearly impossible. I can’t begin to describe how many times I have screamed myself awake, fighting alpha’s hold around me just to break down and cry in his arms. The anticipation of returning after six months of rtive peace is as torturous as the beating I know I’m going to get as soon as I step out of the van.
The ding of my new phone causes me to yelp even though there isn’t anyone around me. Going through the monotony of emptying my clothing from the drawers and closet is weighing hard on me as I pick my phone up off the dresser, checking on the message I just received.
It’s from Jessa asking if I’m okay. I refuse to lie to her but I also don’t want to worry her.
That’s actually what ourst fight was about. Alpha hasn’t said a word to me about staying. I know it’s an option but my instincts tell me that I must return onest time. It doesn’t matter how many times I try to argue with my wolf about how stupid returning is. How it’s going to be the death of me to do so, but there’s something calling me back and I must find out what it is. Jessa hasn’t been quite as epting and I blew up on herst week. I can’t say that I me her.
A light knock on my door frame <b>causes </b>me to yelp again. I lift my eyes from the phone alpha gave mest month to the door, casting my gaze down when I see alpha’s concern.
“I know you’re having a hard time. The offer stands all the way until you leave my territory.”
He speaks gently without the pressure I get from my mate.
“If you stop for a break will you be able to start again?”
I shake my head as the tears fall before I can turn my back to him. I feel so emotionally weak that I’m struggling with everything.
“Don’t fight me Cole.”
I can tell he’s moving towards me before he puts his hands on my shoulders, turning me around. I follow his movements but make none of my own until he pulls me in. The flood gates open as soon as I touch him, wrapping my arms around him as he holds me tightly in silence. It’s only as I finally calm down that he speaks.
“Please, talk to me.” His plea is a whisper but I easily hear him.
“I’m terrified alpha. I don’t want to leave but I can’t exin why I must return. I keep saying that I need thatptop but the more I think about it the more I question that motive. There is something that I must see or do before I can finally be free of that wretched hell. I just don’t know what it is. I have no proper reasoning for returning.
All of the pups I help have told me repeatedly that they would understand if I left. Olivia has told me every time I return that it makes her sad to see me. Not because she doesn’t want to see me but because she loves me so much she doesn’t want me to return to such a hell hole. I know what’s waiting for me when I get out of that van, the horrors that await me.
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Tanya Gordon
unfortunately that’s how it seems to work with most severely abused cases. they always swim <i>to </i>fall thru the cracks. So sad really.
Tiffany Birt
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anybody else wondering about Lucas and if he really was assaulted by coles brother
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