Chapter 320 The One–Sided Goodbye
Chapter 320 The One–Sided Goodbye
He couldn’t stand to watch her retching like that anymore–looking sick and miserable because of him. He turned to leave.
But when he saw her sitting there, eyes watery and lookingpletely miserable, something twisted in his chest. In the end, he poured her a cup of warm water.
“Lily, try drinking some water.”
The trash can was still clean. Lily hadn’t actually thrown anything up.
She pressed lightly on her lower stomach, took the cup from him, and said quietly, “Thanks.”
“Yeah,” James replied coolly, clearly not in the mood to talk.
Lily’s stomach slowly started to settle. After a few sips of water, she felt a lot better.
Realizing she wasn’t wearing much, she quickly set the cup down and grabbed a coat to cover herself.
Thinking back on the misunderstanding, she sat on the edge of the bed and said softly, “I really don’t think you’re disgusting. I just… my stomach wasn’t feeling great today.”
“Yeah.”
James didn’t want to argue, but he didn’t believe a word of it either.
If she’d really just had an upset stomach, why hadn’t she gotten sick earlier? Why only when he kissed her?
He wasn’t buying it–not for a second.
“James, have you seen a doctor?” Lily knew he didn’t want to talk about what Wesley had done to him, but she was still concerned. “I think you should get checked out. Let a doctor figure out a treatment n. If the drug left anysting effects, it could cause real problemster.” Worried he might ignore the problem, she added gently, “What if you get married and have kids someday? If the symptoms re up when you’re with someone else, it could destroy your marriage. You should really take care of it now.”
That drug hadn’t left him with any side effects.
He hadn’t kissed her because of any side effect. He did it because he was shameless and too weak to fight the mess inside his own head.
But she wanted nothing more than to divorce him, and he’d literally made her sick, with a kiss<b>. </b>There <b>was </b>no way he could admit the truth, So he just gave a t reply. “Yeah.”
Lily let out a quiet breath of relief, d he was at least open to treatment.
She <b>wanted </b><b>a </b>family more than anything. And once she had this baby, there was no way she’d be able to send <b>it </b><b>back </b><b>to </b>the Luke family,
<b>Sull</b><b>, </b><b>the </b><b>Luke </b><b>family </b>were <b>genuinely </b>kind people. <b>Even </b>if they found out she was pregnant and <b>went </b><b>through </b><b>with </b>the <b>divorce</b><b>, </b><b>they </b>wouldn’t try to take the baby from her.
Her feelings were mixed. On one hand, she didn’t want James to know about the pregnancy–she didn’t want to disrupt his life. But on the other, he had a right to know. Maybe he deserved to hear it.
It’s not like she or the baby would get in his way. Telling him probably wouldn’t matter.
After thinking for a moment, she carefully asked, “James, once we’re divorced, we’ll both go on to get married and have families. Do you like kids?”
James frowned.
His first instinct was to reject the idea of divorcing her.
The thought of her walking down the aisle with Jackson, smiling, starting a new life–that made his blood boil.
As for whether he liked kids…
James had never thought about it.
But after divorcing Lily, there was no way he’d get married again or have children. So there was no reason to like kids.
Without giving it much thought, he answered, “No.”
Lily’s lips parted slightly. Her next words caught in her throat.
She sat stiffly on the edge of the bed for a moment, then asked quietly, “What if someone was pregnant with your child? What would you do?”
Pregnant with <i>my </i>child<i>? </i>
He hated getting close to people. The only ones he’d ever wanted to be close to were Le and Lily.
Le was a man–so was he. That wasn’t even a possibility.
And Lily couldn’t have children. So the two of them couldn’t have a baby either.
if he ever had a child, it would have to be with some woman he didn’t care about.
But he had zero interest in any other woman. There was no way he’d let something like that happen.
Still, Lily had asked a hypothetical–what if someone got pregnant with his child?
He instinctively rejected the idea and said tly, “I’d get rid of it. I don’t like women and I’m not having a kid.
<b>He </b>had <b>enough </b>self–control around other women that even <b>if </b>someone tried to trap him, it wouldn’t <b>work</b><b>. </b>He’d never <b>touch </b><b>them</b>.
If <b>any </b><b>woman </b>besides Lily ended up <b>pregnant </b><b>with </b><b>his </b>child, he wouldn’t give <b>in </b><b>just </b><b>because </b><b>of </b><b>that</b>. <b>He </b><b>wouldn’t </b><b>want </b>the baby either.
Get rid of <b>it</b>.
Lily’s heart sank, and she subtly shielded her belly with her hand.
Forget it. There was no way she could let him know.
She couldn’t let the baby she already loved be heartlessly taken away by its own father.
This child was hers and hers alone.
“Lily, when’s Jackson free?”
That morning. James had seen Jackson’stest post–one of those stories set to “close friends only.”
In the photo, Jackson had lifted his tank top to show off his eight–pack abs. The caption read, “Lily says I’m loyal and loves my abs. I’m so happy. I’m going to be Lily’s man forever.”