Chapter <b>170 </b>


    “I can’t exin it. Just beat me now, Lay into me hard. Please just beat the desire out of me


    He’s absolutely begging for punishment for something he hasn’t done as tears stream


    down


    his face.


    “I need your help to understand Cole, Why do I need to punish you, to beat you? You have a desire towards my daughter but you’ve derved ever having sex


    tell when you’re lying, As I told you in the bathroom,


    and that you’ve ever raped anyone. You swear that you don’t hurt the pups and as an intuitive I ca


    you’ve yet to trigger a very powerful bullshit meter.”


    I can tell by his face that he hates going into details. That he’s already struggling with his own self worth when ites to his desire for my daughter.


    It takes him a long time to finally break the monotony of Ang and her tools stitching Cole’s head back together.


    “I want to hold her, alpha. I want to keep her close, tofort and protect her from anyone and anything that may harm her. Pups are pure and innocent. They are the only ones that have never hurt me. They are the only ones that have epted me for who I am and not what others have said about me. Even tonight when she was scared because of what Lucas told her she was able to bypass those fears and give me a chance. The older they are the harder it is to convince them. But it’s wrong, alpha. It’s wrong to want, to need such a connection with pups that aren’t mine.”


    I watch as Ang starts cleaning up. I’d like to see how it turned out but his sanity taking such a hard <b>turn </b>toward the worse is <b>a </b>much bigger concern.


    I try toy down with him again but I’m met with a resistance that I wasn’t expecting. He has again convinced himself that he’s deserving of punishment and so far nothing I’ve said is getting through to him. There is something driving his desire to have pups close to him. Something that goes beyond simply helping them even if that’s the way it started. Have the beatings left him impotent? Not something I would dream of asking right now but considering his age and his hunt for his luna there’s no doubt that having pups of his own is on his mind. What I need now is for him to finish telling me about <b>his </b>previous rtionships and this box of mild bdsm restraints he was given.


    I allow him to push me away. To struggle and fight me as I try to get close to him. He’s utterly exhausted and it doesn’t take long for <b>it </b>to show. Even though he’s exhausted himself I decide to take a different route trying tofort him and move to Ang’s seat at the head of the bed.


    <i>“</i>Cole, the desires you have, the more I listen to what you’ve said, sounds like you want to be a father. <b>I </b>will admit that the way you said it mixed with <b>the </b>rumors did initially cause some concern but the way you broke it down, that you have the desire to hold and protect Madilyn, is <b>a </b>natural desire. You’re <b>a </b>young male in your twenties looking for your mate. The next step after finding her would be to have pups and that’s normal.”


    I try to convince him but his contorted face tells me that he’s not hearing any of it,


    “I’m not allowed to have pups.”


    He finally whispers. I’m taken back by this information. How could anyone deny another the right to reproduce?


    “When I got called to my dad’s office that night, even though I thought everything he said was horrible and cruel, I knew better than to say anything about it. Here he was, teaching me how to rape my only friend at the time but I couldn’t say a word against it. I knew better to open my mouth when he wasn’t punishing me. He gave me permission that day to have as much sex with as many she–wolves <b>as </b>I fancied but it was at a price. If I fucked up and got her pregnant I would have hell to pay.”


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