You told me that hever chested, so what’s the story with this Ethan guy? How did I end up with him?”


    Since we were on that topic, I might as well get the answer to the question that has been driving me


    completely insane.


    He doesn’t answer for a while, and I just stay silent, I wait for him to gather his thoughts. I know he does


    love Iris, but I can also tell that Ethan is a touchy subject for him.


    I wonder what Ethan did to get on Rowan’s bad side and why the hell I would sleep with him. Was it a


    way for me to get back at Rowan for not loving me? You know? Sleep with a man he doesn’t like.


    I’m not really a vengeful person, but I also understand that pain and heartache can push someone to do


    things they would not normally do.


    “When Emma came back, I wanted to be with her,” he begins.


    It hurts to hear him say that, but I always knew something like this would happen when and if she came


    back. I just never thought it would hurt this badly.


    “I knew that it wouldn’t be good for Noah if we ended things abruptly. We needed to first ease him into


    the idea of us no longer being together. You agreed and I started seeing Emma secretly as we prepared


    for a separation.”


    I focus on him. Listening to every word he was saying. I didn’t want him to see my pain, so I hid it behind


    an indifferent mask


    “You met Ethan when he saved you during an attack. He was one of the officers assigned to protect us


    during James burial. A threat had been made and they couldn’t risk anyone else dying.”


    I frown because nothing of what he was saying rings any bells. There was nothing but nkness where


    the memory should be.


    “When you say he saved me, what do you mean?” I ask curiously.


    “There was a shootout. You got hit on the shoulder, but if it wasn’t for Ethan diving for you, you would


    have ended up dead.”


    Well, that was a nice thing for him to do, especially for a total stranger. I guess that was our ‘How I Met


    Your Mother‘ story… But where was Rowan? Before I can, he continues.


    that us


    don’t know the nitty–gritty details; all I know is two started seeing each other. It honestly made me


    jealous. I couldn’t understand why, but it bothered me to see you with another man. It wanted to rip


    rprise


    wes balling his fist was proof enough that it still bothered him a lot. Never in my wildest vel ever thought


    that Rowan would be jealous and possessive towards me, so this is a total


    7 had yet to understand my feelings towards you, so when you told me about him, I agreed that our


    marriage should be an open rtionship. It didn’t seem fair to keep you away from him when I myself


    was courting another woman.”


    Fuck. Why the hell did hearing him say that hurt so fucking much. It is pretty clear that he was ready to


    cast me aside for Emma. I always knew it was inevitable so I don’t know why it hurts.


    As for Ethan, I really don’t understand. Was he able to capture my attention so much that I would


    approach Rowan with the issue, or did I just want to make Rowan jealous? Maybe get a reaction out of


    him.


    What was it about this Ethan guy that aplished what other guys never could? What was it about him


    that made me get so attracted to him that we even had sex?


    “I was seeing Emma and you were seeing Ethan, yet my every thought was consumed by you,” he


    exhaled, running a hand through his tousled hair. “It’s funny, honestly. When Emma came back, I thought


    you would be a pain in my ass, like you were when we were younger. It surprised me when you weren’t.


    You didn’t even seem to care. I ended up being a pain because for some reason, I couldn’t let you go.”


    Had I really been like that? My world revolved around Rowan and Noah. For him to say that it seemed


    like I wasn’t even bothered that he was dating Emma is really weird